((:

love/hate/afraid/no guts.

2011-05-16T21:50:00.003+08:00

everyone has their own thinking.
if u are ready to listen then don't ask.
why even bother asking when u can't accept others' thinking or rather if u always think that u are right.
i'm quite sick of it.
stop telling people to think, the way u think!
yes i have no freaking guts to say this to u... cause i know no matter what u have your reasons and i am in no freaking mood to hear it.
seriously, just because u are in a prestige profession everything u say got to be right.
excuse me, it's because u have your reason to it.
BUT what we say we have our reasonings too, which may not sound reasonable to u..

seriously is there something wrong with me today? or what?
f***** up..

seriously f***** up.

2011-05-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

seriously, what's freaking wrong with me.
and maybe u too.

i just feel like having to to f*** off.
i hate it.

it's because i'm carrying too much stuff on my shoulder?
i feel out of breath.
i'm just trying to accomdate everyone.
is that too much to carry? am i not capable?

i know i got to be strong. i know that.
especially in the profession i want to be in. i ought to be strong.

i need someone to be supportive. if u aint pls kindly f*** off. yes u..

i'm back.

2011-05-04T15:29:00.003+08:00

there are many issues going on.
first and foremost is the GE (General Election).
It seems to me that Singapore is in a chaos. It's just a matter of time I guess. Even many of the civilised/respected people aint talking any sense and treat this matter professionally. Every meetings/gatherings I go, everyone is talking about it. All I do was to sit and listen, no comments given, maybe i'll acknowledge alittle here and there.

FYI, i'm under Tanjong Pager.
remarks were given, such as people in TJP doesn't play apart in Singapore's future for the next 5 years; there are also positive comments that TPJ people are lucky.

I'm not leaving any comments.

I'm really wondering what will happen to Singapore next year...

I've also become more optimistic, ever since the incidents of the 14 years old Thai girl and the series of events that Japan faces. This is life & reality we just have to accept it and move on. Be strong, be brave and take every step with care...

emo.

2011-02-09T23:42:00.002+08:00

doesn't mean i didn't blog means i've been happy.

many things on-going on my head! yes i'm irritated with myself. sigh.

i hate blogger for not allowing me to upload beautiful pictures that was taken during the ECP camping.

i need some space alone.

till then.

bad christmas

2010-12-27T00:33:00.001+08:00

I'm ain't happy at all. Totally. Somehow I hate my Christmas this year...

Yes till now I'm not happy. I'm really wondering if it can last. I hate myself. Seriously. I'm pissed. Fuck is the word to use as least to describe how I'm feeling now. Seriously I don't think I need u. So Fuck off. U don't know me at all. I need nobody.

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moving on to the next phase...

2010-12-05T12:13:00.002+08:00

and yes. I've finally receive my acceptance letter from Monash University. (:
despite upon signing up for my Master programme, the course coordinator said it will be a 'sure get' place as long as you didn't fail any, I still have fear in me that what if i can't get a placing?

I've already dropped out from my 4th yr course and heading straight for my Master without saving myself another pathway. it was indeed a dangerous move.
I was so afraid, esp when people start asking me so what i'm gonna do/be/whatsoever.

But now i can proudly say that yes, I will be a student in Monash University.

Anyway, when i post a statement that "moving on to the next phase" a few commented. what stunned me is a friend of mine commented that "nice, private?".
am i being sensitive? as she is from a local university.
then it cross my mind..... is there a difference between private and overseas?
i believe people will go 'WOW u are going overseas.', 'oh.. u are going to a private school', or 'which school are u going? NTU or NUS?'.

people are born like that aint they?
why don't they think before they talk?

Is there a difference in private and overseas?
maybe i just being sensitive.

_________________________________

i do not know why sometime ~~i speak to you~~ you speak to me, i feel emo.
sometimes it hits me instantly.
is it because i feel obligated and what u say i just have to listen?
is it because u help my family so much?
is it because i've been conditioned by u- everything u say will always be right?
do u know........ somethings u do does affect the others?
do u know........ how others really feel abt u?

i wish to get a life on my own.
a simple life will do.
and it suddenly hit me that if i were to succeed one day credit will go to you and if i don't i will be put to blame that i didn't work hard.
so now tell me... am i living for myself?
pls say yes.

after ur call, my mood was negative AGAIN.

i wish i could take things easy.

2010-11-25T18:31:00.003+08:00

life is tough.
i hate to say but now i feel money is everything.

once again i feel threaten.
the feeling i hate most from you.
the one whom i respect, feel obligated and the one who taught me to be honest.

If honesty leads to threatening outcome why should one be honest then?
is that how the creation of white lie comes abt?

i wish i was someone who can take things easy.
like someone said one ear in one ear out.
but this is easier to be said than done.

i tried. i really tried to hold back.
but i couldn't, in the end it still flows down my cheek.

i really hope i can grow up soon and live for myself. don't u?

and... i doubting myself for holding a counsellor profession.
as what most people say i take things too hard. is it true?
i think so.

now that i think back i've been updating my blog. somehow updates on my blog isn't interesting/funny/happy. which then conclude do u think i'm happy now? no.

shall go when the com decided to die on me.

sick bugs

2010-11-22T15:32:00.002+08:00

i had flu 2 weeks ago and just before i thought i had recovered, i'm down with gastric flu.
now all i want is to recover.
i missed my 2 precious weekends just like that.

today it's monday and i just got back home.
aunt says i look pale ask me to go home and rest.

yes, i know i should be sleeping now but.. i ~~don't want~~ can't seem to sleep.
sigh.
i want to go for training on wed but i doubt my aunt would allow me. SIGH.

on a happier note, my contract will end tomorrow and I WILL BE ABLE TO GET A NEW PHONE. :D
mr sim has been asking me or rather psycho' me to get iphone 4 and i think i'll probably get that BECAUSE of it's front camera. HAHA. okay.

and... i shall be a nice sister and give my itouch to my brother that if he wants it cause he will prolly get an iphone when he is back!

somehow blogging makes me happy! (:
thanks to those lovelies who reads it. love u girls!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR SIM.
i hope u grow up to be more mature when u were 21. HAHAHA! (:
thank you for whatever u have done and hope u like your presents!

till then,
good night peeps!

i miss him..

2010-11-15T23:50:00.002+08:00

the guy i loved most.
the guy i whom i place as my first pirority.

my dearest brother (:

spoke to bro for almost 2 hours!
My bro has always been a real nice guy just that sometimes he is alittle too 'gu niang'. HAHA!
We have never speak for straight 2 hrs over the 22 years of my life growing up with him.
People do change uh?

we always quarrel and fight during our younger days.
Me being jealous of him getting everyone's love/care/concern.
but still.... I'm really grateful to have a bro like him.

i'm looking forward to his graduation this dec! (:

... and i love my bro very very much. hehe!

don't be jealous k, mr sim.
i know u love him too. (:

blogging makes me feel better.

2010-11-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

reasons why i blog:-
1) when i'm sad,
2) when i'm angry,
3) when i'm stress,

basically when I'm feeling negative; OR

4) when i'm happy,
5) when i think abt the past,
6) when i'm free (or rather i'm bored).

However, most of the time is due to feeling negative or i'm bored.

no doubt for this time round.
I caught with flu on friday.
As this week wasn't a good week for me.
Rushing here and there with aunt, starting work as early as 7.30am and ending work as late as 7pm. (Yes, my aunt did say it's okay I can come late and I can leave early like 6pm? but i feel bad. reason being... during most of the day time I have nothing to do. practically doing NOTHING. all i do is to run errand for her, being her PA-putting it in a nice way, being her dog? how's that?) i hate to say but i really feel like a dog, sometimes. How on earth can i tell her that? this make me even stronger and determine to be at a higher position. It sucks when someone keeps ordering u around what's more if someone being really nice that says it's okay or can you please help me? When someone u ~~feel obligated~~ respect say this to u, wouldn't u just do what they say?

Sometimes i wish to say it's not good afterall to work for someone who dotes on u. It's tougher than u think it is. I always wish that it would be good for me in a sense that I would be a stronger person when I hit the work force. I hate to cry like a crybaby, I hate it so much. Stress is building up, I think I need to go for some stress management course, and yes, not forgeting i've a psychology as a degree and that I wish to specialise in counseling. It's really demoralising when I think abt my future.

My aunt is the one who taught me if u can't even help your family how are u going to help other people. But one of my tutor told me otherwise, as he said it's different. I believe what my tutor but at the same time I have to do what my aunt says. I really feel as though I have a huge burden to carry, which is so heavy that I can't handle. I'm not trying to having any empathy or what so ever but sometimes it's really hard just to keep it to myself. This is one reason why i always console myself that sat is not a good day to hang out unless of special occasion. Because my aunt will always indirectly blame me for hanging out when i'm poor in my eng or when i fall sick after an outing. However, if i were to look after my cousins, bringing them out. inviting to my house to play she will.... be over the moon. I really don't mind bringing my cousins out, really. I'm already going out lesser with my friends what more she wants? I know I have a sick mother to look after, I'm trying. But don't they realise I too, need a life? I feel lost. Sometimes I really think we don't live for ourselves but for others.

I'm tired. I hope my aunt or none of my close family members ever read this cause reading this will only make them sad.
This feeling of mine it's only for today. I'll be fine tomorrow since i've type it out and cry it all out. (:
I'm still grateful with the family members I have.
Kor kor, i'm really looking forward to your return. I need your support.

fang bu xie

2010-10-26T19:28:00.003+08:00

i wish whatever happen was a dream.
wo fang bu xie.
i try to act as normal as i can when i'm home facing my mum, but i failed too.
to the extend that i'm reluctant to go home and face her.
i know she feels bad too but.... sigh.

how i wish it was a dream.
it's hard. it's harder than i thought to cope with it.

this makes me want to work doubly hard.
i hate to say this but i have to as it serve as a reminder to myself.
i don't wish money to be an issue to me when i grow old and i don't wish to be a burden to my kids in future.

have you ever....

2010-10-26T09:39:00.003+08:00

throw temper to someone u loved dearly?
throw away ur fav shoe?
throw away someone's fav shoe?
throw away an expensive shoe?

forgive someone immediately after they accidentally threw something u loved?
forgive someone immediately after they made a mistake?

gone to the rubbish dump to dig for things?
tried talking to cleaner/ or even smile to them?
talk to neighbours around u?

i had all of this within one morning.

mum throw away a pair of expensive shoes that was given to me by my aunt. this was due to miscommunication and that i'm returning it to my aunt as it was too big for me. thus, it was place near the door so as it will be easier for me to be reminded to bring it the next morning. however it was placed near and empty box(which is supposed to be thrown away by myself) & in another bag there were shoe and new clips. I was suppose to bring it yesterday but i only remembered when i'm at the bus stop waiting for my bus to arrive and since it was raining i decided only to bring tomorrow. To think that yesterday morning was my lucky day as when i just reached the bus stop my bus came.

This morning when i woke up i remembered that i need to bring the bag of things. i was shocked when i couldn't find that bag! i quickly rushed in to my mum's room and asked, to my dismay she said she threw it away. I was in a lost. Without any hesitation i ran down to search everywhere, asking neighbours around me and even when to the rubbish dump. I happy to say every single one of them was very helpful and friendly. Yes, it was a terrible mistake. As it was a very expensive gift (almost to 4 digits). I broke down when the cleaners told me they didn't see it.

At that pt of time, i was angry with myself, my mum and that man. (kick that man out of the story cause it just make me hate him more). I was thinking why my mum would try the shoe away keeping that bag of new clips. it's ironic isn't it? when both the shoe and clips are in the same bag. Not to say that shoe is in perfect condition. To think back, yesterday morning I've forgotten to bring my mobile phone along thus, i gave my mum 2 calls in the morning to tell her to call me at the office if anythings happen OR if she needs to ask me/look for me.

Called my aunt but she was in the bathroom. Aunt returned called 20min later, sounding frighten to ask me what happened. Intitally she told something happen to my mum as her left leg has been giving her problem. However, when I told her what had happened, she says in a consoling tone, "it's alright sweetheart, that's a small matter", which totally warms my heart but made me felt even worse in a way. She even laughed to say "it's doesn't matter, what matter most is ur relation with your mum. I think your mum must be feeling bad now, just tell her it's alright", she said it with a smile (though i can't see but i felt it).

When angered me even more is that everything when i have a conflict with mum she will always blame my aunt that she spoilts us, which is irritating. she always brings up the past and start blaming everyone but not herself. I'm not saying she isn't nice but to a certain extend she could have been better in the past. I'm not perfect either, no one is.

However, i'm glad this happen. I met so many nice people, whom most rich aint. One neighbour even gave me a hug consoling me that "it's just an item, what's important is health. You can always buy a new edition and earn more money to get it" and also my aunt's reaction towards this matter. I mean everyone makes mistake. You got to know how to 'fang xie' (let it go). This will kept in mind so that if someone were to accidently throw something expensive that belongs to u, it might be a blessing in disguise.
"bu yao ba qian kian de tai zhong".

I have learned many things in the past one month working with my aunt. I am happy to have nice people around me. (:

this is love.

many have said intelligent people are the ones without graditute. how true is that? asked yourself.
gracious is something u have to learn to give and of course to recevie as well.

Work life.

2010-10-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

started working ever since the following week after my exams.
since then i've been sleeping at the latest 11pm and i can go to bed as early as 9pm.
thus, i'm unable to keep up with my social life as over the weekends i've family commitment.

unless..... dates are planned before hand. (:

till then,
i hope life gets better.

loves. (:

looking forward to next month!

2010-09-30T22:34:00.002+08:00

to be exact... pay day.
i need more clothes!

started working since mon and i realise i do not have decent clothes for work.
my wardrobe is filled with tees and shorts. which means i need to start shopping! (:
this time round i would go for quality rather than quantities.

have to start saving money for my Master's program too.

1 down.

2010-09-21T00:36:00.002+08:00

1 more to go.

reached home at 10.30pm. had dinner. blog hop. facebook. course search. looking for volunteer vacancy that is related.

no mood to start studying. felt as though it's my last. after looking more in depth about counseling, i start to ponder. Is this really what i want? will i be happy?

on the other hand.... looking at the modules provided for the counselling course, i'm getting excited about it. (:
seriously i can't wait to start school. just that it seems so fast that i'm going for a Master. oh well... i'm start missing my primary and secondary school friends.

I have offically become a Bachelor of Arts student.

ihopeimadetherightchoicethistimeround.

♥♥♥

2010-09-16T22:11:00.004+08:00

and i shall not ask for more...
no one is perfect. (:

Do you know what would u like to do in the near future?

2010-09-15T23:55:00.003+08:00

I realised i've been asking myself this question many times.
However, it keeps changing and changing and changing.
I know what i want - to have a better live.

Do u realise sometimes even if u are doing something u like, u can't excel.
When u are doing something that u are not really fond of and u excel it, your thinking for that changes.
and yes.. this happens to me.

After getting back my assignments result i'm aint happy at all.
It kinda demoralise me. I don't know. I don't feel good at all.
Suddenly i can't seems to concentrate.
People started asking this and that. yes i'm irritate. call me selfish for this time.
All i wanted was to be alone. Cause i'm aint happy at all.
be sensitive dude! pls!

I'm really feeling the pressure.

I'm glad that i'm graduating this sem cause i know i wouldn't excel even if i stay any longer.
Then this lead to another question... will i be at least interested with what i'm doing for the next phase of my life? will i excel?

Can someone... please guide me through...
and yes...... I'm not unhappy it's just that I'm not feeling happy. ):

In need of motivation

2010-08-29T14:34:00.003+08:00

I've got an essay due on tuesday and i've not even started typing.

Anyway, after much consideration and thoughts, i've decided not to continue my 4th year. Which means i'll be taking my last examinations during end of september, in short this is my last semester. Time flies isn't it? PSLE, O'level, Dipolma, finally obtaining a DEGREE soon then a Master after.

Alright! back to work. (:

Group work.

2010-08-18T16:25:00.002+08:00

so much so that i USED to like group work.
somehow i hated it so much now that i prefer individual work.

who are your friends?
and i feel i only need a small number of them...

i just feel like shouting out,
I HATE YOU! yes you.

i'm not happy at all.

back to blog.

2010-07-29T00:25:00.004+08:00

some pictures from the TW & HK trip. (:

i've so many things in mind to say it here but i don't know where to start.

i'm glad that i'm meeting up with most of my lovelies this week.

ps: see u this friday shuli! :D

ps: thank you QP for the gift. it's on my wall now and... i do remember ur bday! ((:

and.... suddenly i feel like emo-ing.

EXAMS are over

2010-06-01T23:32:00.005+08:00

finally... ((:
i'm so glad is it over!

anyay i'll be heading to TW & HK from 3 June 10 till 13 June 10.
and yes, 2 days later i'll be flying off to TW for a week followed by HK for 4 days.
i can't wait!
got to start packing my stuff now.
post pictures when i'm back. (:

i'm feeling really pissed right now. i'm being kind enough to help u but u don't even initiate to do anything or rather show ur appreciation. plus this is not the first time. i really didn't wish to blog it out but i can't help it. i'm really feeling very uneasy abt it. wth. is this how u treat a friend? i don't even think u treasure friends around u. maybe that explain why we were hardly close togehter. argh! i'm trying to think of things that u have done to make me feel appreciated and that u treat me as a friend! or rather a close one u claim... i feel quite dissappointed in u. maybe because i'm treating u like a real close friend that's why i'm so pissed with all your doings.
i start to think back... maybe i've neglected u during our sch days but i was there whenever u needed me at ur lowest point and after that.. we lost contact. desipte putting in so much for u. maybe... it's my duty to keep in contact with u? i don't know. i feel we are really drifting apart and i feel that u've changed since we graduated together. It seems that i've to get to know u all overagain...

the first thing i wish to see tomorrow is..

2010-05-30T13:41:00.002+08:00

YOU!

and still YOU.

((:

one down one to go.

2010-05-29T18:00:00.003+08:00

looking forward to his return on mon morning! ((:
last paper on tuesday.
flying off on thursday. (:

head out with nana for some scrumptious cake session! ((:

the store is along ann siang hill and it's call K-Ki. nice place to chill but limited seats, 5 tables with 2 chairs each.

anyway, it was a nice outing with nana. (:

more to come... i hope. (:

4 more days.

2010-05-27T00:36:00.001+08:00

the importance of friendship.

2010-05-24T01:11:00.003+08:00

i'm glad that i managed to meet up with almost my lovelies EXCEPT for a few u know who.
so... u guys better be free after my exams when i date u! :)

lovelies whom i've tried to catch up with during my study break. yes study break not holiday.
1) pri sch gang! (yun, wen, chin and fong)
2) sec sch gang! (net, xiaoyan, shuli and liduan)
3) my uni lovelies! jer, jude and nana.
4) Haagan Dazs lovelies, czarina, mei jun, mel, kat and ama (missing val).
5) two bros, ming and tock.

missing lovelies:
1) ms WU qiu ping and ms KONG wai ying
2) mimi who is currently over at germany.
3) P1A5 peeps!
4) of course mr SIM.

i think these roughly sum up all my lovelies. though it looks little but it's more than enough. u wouldn't know how much they mean to me. every single one i've mention accompanied me at different points of my life. all of them are such a dear to me. i'm glad i'm still in contact with every single one of them.

yes, we may not be meeting up as often as we used too but feelings within us hardly change. whenever we meet up the old feeling of closeness return. there isn't any awkwardness at all.
this is what u call TRUE FRIENDSHIP.

being able to meet up with so many lovelies all thanks to mr SIM without him heading to Taiwan it'll be hard for me and of course not forgetting my 3 weeks of STUDY break.

isn't it true? once u are in a relationship it's hard for u to meet up with ur friends, what's more if ur bf is in NS and ur weekend is also burnt but that doesn't mean we take friends for granted.

i do cherish all of u.
thank you for being my friend.

EMO

2010-05-18T01:03:00.001+08:00

felt so emo.
sigh.
feel so lonely suddenly.
feel so stress.

i can't wait for june to come.

i miss u.

2010-05-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

i really do.

quail eggs for supper

2010-04-20T01:02:00.003+08:00

there are so many things i would like to type out here.
but my mind just went blank whenever i sees this chunk of blank space.

tried to study the whole day at home but it wasn't effective.
and i realise i've bee snacking A LOT too.
well... at least i manage to do 1 chapter till now and did some housework.

alright till then.
night pretties.

it's friendship week.

2010-04-19T01:57:00.003+08:00

send a sweet and touching message to most of my friends whom i treasure.
and i do hope that they feel the same way as i felt when i first read the message.

part of the message goes like this,

有一天，天爱上了海，是空气阻隔了他们。
他们无法相爱，天哭了。泪水落在海里，即使不能相爱，天也要把灵魂托给海。
从此海比天蓝。。。。
当所有人在关心你飞得高不高时，只有少数人在关心你飞得累不累。

这就是所为的好朋友。

though this message is send by someone whom i don't regret as one of my closest friend.
but the simple message like this does touched me.

friends are important and plays an important role in our lives.
true friends are the ones that stand by your side.
true friends are the ones that will be there for you.
thank you, for being my friend. (:

fed up!

2010-03-08T22:18:00.003+08:00

i'm pissed off right now.
yes now!

don't wish to eleborate.

i just can't wait to have a life of my own.
maybe i should have just went oversea to study like my bro.

i wonder....

2010-03-05T15:27:00.002+08:00

are grades really important?
however, i always convince myself it is not.

but somehow or rather it is.
in many aspects.

probably that is one of the many reasons why kids are more stressful now a days.
to the extend that they kill themselve.
only till then... adults starts to regret.
or maybe... kids suffering from stress, depression, anxiety and so on.
i mean... adults always say grades are not important.
YET on the other hand when u score lower than their expectection they are unhappy.
what is this man.

alright, aside from this, kids stresses themselves too.
yes, u may say that having a thinking like me, "convincing myself that grades aint as important" it may due to my grades are low and i'm running away from it.
yes maybe u are right, i'm convincing myself.
and yes, i didn't do well again.
but... so what if i did well and am a failure in later life.
and what if... i'm a failure now and did well in later life.
yes.. it's alright hard to predict as the key words are IN LATER LIFE.
you never know what will happen.
whether the earth is dying.

i guess one of the reason why grades are important is for first impression.

oh well. can't wait to end sch and start work.
cause.. sad to say i hate the phrase, "you better STUDY HARD ".

it's time to say goodbye again

2010-02-19T22:24:00.002+08:00

bro flew back to aussis today AGAIN,
but the good new is, he will be back for good at the end of this year. (:

somehow my house seems alittle quiet.
and yes, i'm missing him AGAIN like how i did the previous time
but manage to hold back my tears this time round.

oh well, i'm looking forward to attend his graduation this year end.
hopefully it doesn't clashes with my timetable. :D

1 more day.

2010-01-29T00:40:00.002+08:00

.... to my final paper. ((:

i can't wait to graduate in '11.
i can't wait to move to my new house between '11 to '13.
i can't wait to meet up with my lovelies! u all know how much i miss u girls.
i can't wait to start earning my own INCOME.
i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait........

to get married!

JUST JOKING for that last statement! for i'm happy with my life now.
i know some of u will start making fun of it.
it's ok. cause my blog seem so DEAD. HAHA!

and..... i'm thinking REAL hard about my future, my career.
teacher?
police?
counselor?
tai tai?
oh well. shall decide when the time is ripe.

night lovelies! be happy for i love u. teehee! ((:

2 down, 1 left.

2010-01-28T11:56:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes. it's my exam period once again.
soon it will be over. 2 down, 1 left. ((:

after which it's spells HOLIDAYssss! and not forgetting CNY too!
as usual after this statement, next will be...
LOVELIES i'm free for a month again!
this time round i'll date u, pretties out instead.
however, due to CNY period, i've the urge of playing ~~blackjack~~ MJ!
i need MJ kakis!

and u know what lovelies, every moment spend with every single one of u girls, stays with me forever.
i was smiling to myself just the other day while going back home, and u know why?
cause i start to think back the time spend in pri, sec, poly and so on just make me realise how much i've enjoyed myself throughout all these years with all of u.
it's all because of u, lovelies. (:
every single one whose names i've mentioned before in my blog are the ones.

alright! back to mug!
sigh.

sickkk

2009-12-22T21:35:00.003+08:00

was rushing assignment for the past few days,
and i'm sick. sigh.

few more days to X'mas and new year! ((:
one more month to exams. :/

oh a happier note,
i've got a new wallet as a xmas present. can'ttttt waittt to use it! ((:

2nd half of the sem

2009-11-30T00:41:00.002+08:00

1 week of break it's over just in a blink of eyes.
few more months to the end of this sem.
which means assigments dates are drawing near and of course EXAMS.

STRESSssssss.
sigh.

and...imissyou.

busy week.

2009-11-17T23:39:00.005+08:00

super super busy.
birthdays, presentations and test coming up!

looking forward to weekend!!!
can't wait for everything to be over.
excluding bday parties. ((:

many pic to upload! but blogger just refuses to let me do it.

2nd week of school

2009-11-06T12:52:00.003+08:00

times flies isn't it.
every start of the week i'll start looking forward to weekends!
but weekends always ends so quickly.
:(

sigh.

busy busy busy

2009-10-21T12:50:00.000+08:00

and now i'm down with a flu.

sigh.

2nd week of holiday

2009-10-13T13:52:00.004+08:00

slacked on sat and dinner with aunt's family and cousin.

sunday - went to twin cousin's house and parkway parade with mum! ((:
bought lots of shorts (my fav!)

2nd week!
mon & tues - twin cousin's place.

wed - work & vball (maybe)

thurs - BF's day! <3 hopefully suntec k. hahahaha! =x

fri - worked then prawn fishing with pri sch cliques! <3

sat - mr sim's day! <3

sun - ama's day! <3

more to come... on the last week of my holiday!
oh ya, long weekend.
HAPPY DEEVAPALI lovelies. ((:

holiday updates!

2009-10-06T23:44:00.004+08:00

sat was the start of my holiday.
had lunch with my family and relatives.
after which had a tiny celebration of mid autumn festival over at second aunt's place.
however, instead of carrying lantern, we, the older cousins were playing texas poker! ((:

sunday, stayed at home the whole day.
played mahjong in the evening with wen, fong and sebas.

mon, went to big aunt's firm to help out.
intended to meet bf in the afternoon but was cancelled.
stayed till 6.30pm and off to small aunt place for dinner. ((:

tues, today! worked
mahjong with cousin, ms ho and Xaiver(her friend, my cousin's friend and my pri sch senior, kind of.)
and.. i just got home.

wed, tomorrow! meeting lovely jude. :D
my long await shopping spree!

work on thurs again.

fri..... mr sim's day. <3

i'm freeeeee on SAT! hello.. anyone?

lovelies lovelies date me out soon k.

14th! volleyball with Ms Ho and friends.
16th! prawn fishing with pri sch cliques!
23rd! outing with Ms Shirely!
more to comeeeeeeeeeee...

cause the bad news is... sch starting on the 26th! :(

mummy, it's over.

2009-10-04T14:50:00.004+08:00

exams are over.
holidays are here.
sadly, only for 3 weeks.

have no planning at all.
thinking of getting a short getaway but guess it's impossible now.

have been reading back my past enteries and i've realised that

how much i've grown.
my english was quite terrible.
time flies.
the fun i had with my lovelies and how close we used to be.

and ya, i've did some editing to my blog. couldn't bear to change my whole blog.
alright! till then lovelies. meet up with u girls soon k. ((:

it's time for a change

2009-09-30T19:12:00.004+08:00

somethings are meant to change over time
whereas somethings can't be changed.

anyway,
feel like changing my blogskin!
i shall do it after exams.
one more to go!
soooo soooo many things to do after exams.

i want a short getaway. ((:

alright lovelies,
will meet up with u girls soon!
at least one day k.

i'm contented with what i have.
though i wish i was richer and prettier. HAHAHA!
and maybe..... smarter?

exam period is HERE again

2009-09-20T23:37:00.003+08:00

(26/9/09) 6 more days to my first paper.
(29/9/09) 9 more days to my second paper.
(3/10/09) 13 more days to my FINAL paper.

2 weeks before exams is always the WORST period of my life.

i should have keep with up with the chap and READ before the start of FIRST lect,
and not always leaving to the last 2 weeks before exam to CHIONG like MAD.
i'm already in my 3rd semester,
everytime 2 weeks before the exams then i'll START to panic and read my text.

ihateihateihate
to reject outings/mj/movies/late night outing/prawning/parties

please pretties,
date me out after 3rd oct. ((:

BF!
ms Ho!
QP, ah ma and mag!
shuli!
ama!
liyun, chin, wen and fong!
jude & jer!

and many many more! awwwwww......... i can't wait!

hang in there!!! 3oct hurry hurry!

@#$#@%%$@#%$@#%

2009-08-10T13:06:00.001+08:00

super foul mood now.
i wish i wish
- i had tons of friends
- to be in the status of SBU (or whatever u call)
which means single but unavaliable.

i hate to be in state.

leave me alone.
i hate faggots.

i wish to be wild.

i wish for the world to come to an end.

seriously, i hate TODAY.
yes. indeed i'm ~~fucking~~ damn pissed.

don't pissed me any further.

skype

2009-07-03T00:44:00.001+08:00

talked to my bro over an hour.
it's one of the longest talk i ever had with my bro.
((:

damn happy la!
lady luck is with me! :DDDDDDDD

27 June 2009

2009-07-02T23:59:00.007+08:00

Advance bday celebration. (:
just a very small party so as to catch up with my lovelies!

Thanks jerlyn, jude, hannah, tim and doug for setting up!

so near yet so far. (dearest.)

thanks for coming Mag! though u have to rush to send ur friend off.

very much appreciated that u can make ur way down!!! love u! ((:
loves the candles.
pri sch cliques! look how much we have grown!
*sorry, li yun is behind playing with my hair. HAHA!
**KK if u happen to read or what-so-ever, i'm very much appreciated that u bother to

call and wish me! u are forgiven! ((:
***thanks rachel for ur msg! appreciated! forgiven too!

sec sch clique!
i know it's a damn small clique cause one left early the other came late.
but glad that they are able to make it. ((:
rennie's clique. fun pple! (:

Uni clique!
glad that i met u girls!
friends for life ya? ((:

most impt pple in my life.
cousins ((:
*missing out my dearest bro and cj in this pic. =(

there u go.

Miss Ho XY in blue. who manage to reach in time for cake cutting session!

thanks girl. ((:

woot! 21 lovelies on 21st. ((:

That's all for my small party.

VERY MUCH APPRECIATED lovelies!
down the list

-siew fong

-li yun

-jing wen

-yan chin

-sebas

-shawn

-magadalene

-linnet aka BF

-XY

-QP

-wai ying aka ah ma

-jake

-tock seng

-mei xuan

-wei ming

- chun kiat

- david

-hannah

-jerlyn

-jude

-doug

-tim

last but not least my cousins!

-le qi

-wen da

-tan hui

-jimmy

-cj

-zhe yin

-zhe hui

-zhe min

thanks my aunties and uncles for help.

thanks everyone for their lovely presents. ((:

thank you so much!

love u lovelies!!! (:

u guys are my best gifts ever.

it's definitely a day to remember.

speechless.

2009-06-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

so NOT looking to sat, 27th june 2009.

a little update.

2009-06-11T12:38:00.008+08:00

Finally, went to tampines 1 on 8 June, Monday with BF which we were supposed to go a month ago.
had a fruitful day with BF! ((:
there aint much stuff as i expected.
Got a few stuff at Uni Qolo.
a brand which i first seen in Japan.
after spending half a day at TM.
we decided to head down to Orchard.

on the way to Orchard.

retard face.

negative effect, my fav. ((:

esp this. nice teeth we've got!

it spells forever.

Went sentosa with uni friends on 9 June, Tuesday. (:

all 3 of us were burnt

and... i think my scapl is a little burnt.

HA!

cause i feel the pain whenever i touch it so i guess it's burnt.

caught Angels and Demons.

fell asleep during the first part of the movie cause i couldn't catch what they are talking about.

Fall sick on 10 June, Wednesday.

Was supposed to accompany mum to do some voluntary work.

but both of us ended up sick.

stayed at home the whole day.

Today!

felt much better.

awaiting for both my lovelies to come over to my place. ((:

true friends are hard to come by.

know who they are and treasure them.

Finally it's over.

2009-05-28T15:33:00.003+08:00

3 days of consecutive exams is MADNESS.
nearly died.
glad that it's over.
YEAH!

exams were kinda tough. ya. all of them.
gonna be so dead. sigh.
whatever i'll just have to accept it hopefully wouldn't fail.
anyway it's O_V_E_R! ya.

so... peeps! who are as free as me care to meet up?
it's JUNE holiday!
kinda sian cause everywhere is gonna be so crowded.
but this is the only period where i can catch up with all my lovelies. ((:

it's only a short 3 weeks break, so gonna make use of it fully!
busy busy month. i like it.
((:

hate it when the sky turns dark

2009-04-07T00:17:00.003+08:00

he gave a msg when the sun was still rising up high
saying that he will call me once he is out.
waited aimlessly for his call
till the sky turns dark.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------

cousin went to aust to look for bro and he will be back anytime soon!
i wish i could go too.
anyway, bro got itouch and some other stuff for me. ((:
bro claims that he got a lot of stuff for me. HA!
my KIND cousin plays a part by bringing them back for me. ((:
**thanks bro and cousin!
suddenly i feel so fortunate to be in this family.
with doting mum, bro, cousin, aunts, uncles etc.

finally settled on a date with qp, wy and mag(if possible).
16 April.
we are calling for mag!

P.S. Mag, if u see this msg kindly let us know if u will be free on 16 April alright.
we would like to meet up with u too! pls pls pls pls make urself free if u can alright.
we will be waiting for ur ans!!! ((: loves.

trying.

2009-04-05T14:39:00.004+08:00

argh. everything is getting up my nerves.every-single-thing.

i'm trying to love u. i really do.

if i love u as much as texas poker, i'll be able to complete the assignment of u three guys.
i will TRY and show more care and concern for u guys alright.

sounded kinda retard. ha.
assignments due in 2 weeks which is driving me crazy.

MUST start from today.
no longer tomorrow.
i've delayed it for too long.
START WORK! =/

sleepless night.

2009-03-31T09:09:00.004+08:00

it led me thinking the whole of last night.
have u even thought why are most of the higher position regardless of any field are taken over by MOST men.

one example i can think of:
-Housewife. most housewife are women so are domestic helper.
(housewife does cooking cleaning and looking after children)
whereas MOST chef (the things they do are almost the same cooking and cleaning)are men. even if said men and women are equal then why isn't there any domestic helper (man) around. maybe not in singapore.

whatever it is men came from woMEN.
they have to suffer for 9months or so.
probably this is the reason why.
after the 9 months women feel attach to her child therefore she is willing to sacrifice her career.
- out of job.
- being a full-time housewife.
- child/children grown up, causes loneliness due to lack of communication with the outside world for too long and therefore unable to be as capable as before.

this kept me thinking the whole night.
i really admire those women who are capable at work(having a stable income), a housewife(keep up with house chores) and a wonderful mother(being able to talk to her children and be like a friend of theirs).

i don't like to be praised cause it means i would have to go one step further.
i am tired.

Screwed life, screwed me.

2009-03-31T00:06:00.008+08:00

just wish to be alone for a moment.
i want to be a superwoman too.
but sorry, i can't.

i almost got drowned for 3 times just for today.
trying to be strong but it's harder than i thought.
being strong in front of others is easy but not when u are alone.

sometimes i do envy guys.
i feel guys are more like gems rather than girls.
everyone seems to favour them more.
maybe not everyone, well at least for the older generation.

i don't ~~wish~~ want to grow up.
it's just too heavy for me to carry.

21st.

2009-03-17T18:49:00.003+08:00

it was so so so random last night!
bf actually message me and asked if i'll be having any 21st bday party. HA!
damn cute la.
we actually had a little brain storming of how 21st bday should be held.
((:
very soon she is gonna turn 21! weet weet. can watch R-21!

true friends are hard to come by.
((:

shopping spree

2009-03-15T22:44:00.003+08:00

sch is only from mon to wed! cool? not at all.
my lesson ends at 10pm for 2 of the days.

thurs - IT fair. crowded. finally manage to get a external hard disk ((: RED.
fri - Mustafa! shopping spree at mustafa. i love to shop at mustafa. lol.
sat - town. got a bag! and i dropped a $10 note somewhere. argh.
sun - bowling!

feeling damn stressed up now for not keeping up with my readings of my text.

PLEASE START READING YOUR TEXT NOW NG MIN FEN!

update.

2009-03-06T22:06:00.008+08:00

Zoo with dearest not long ago. ((:

one of my fav animal, the white tiger.

food food food!

fun fun fun!

u will enjoy every moment whenever u are with ur love ones. ((:

-most of the times.

feel so lonely suddenly. =/

imissimissimiss you.

next week - IT fair!

V'day.

2009-02-17T01:48:00.008+08:00

it's been almost a week since my bro left for aust.
i've been hanging out damn late with my cousin almost every night.

spending the last night with bro and cousin on mon.
send bro off and had supper with cousin and bro's friends on tues.
went to st. james on wed with cousin and my girl friends, happen to see poly friend and bro's friend.
finally met up with qp and wy on thurs, received a rose from dearest qp then mahjiong at cousin's place with wy, cousin and his girlfriend. ((:
hanging out late with cousin and his girlfriend, went to st. james and caught bride wars at vivo on friday.
v'day, mahjiong in the afternoon and prawning at night with dearest, cousin and cousin's girlfriend.
volleyball training early in the morning and out with aunt at night on sun.

monday, went to cousin's place in the morning and out with uncle to town in the afternoon.
gonna have lunch with cousin later on. ((:

i am meeting my dearest cousin almost everyday. HA!
he is my so-call part time bro cum boyfriend.
since bro is off to aust and dearest is in ns.

not forgetting meeting bf on wed! ((:

last but not least,
HAPPY belated V'day peeps. :D

iamtryingtokeepmyselfbusy,
causeiamstillmissingu,bro.

once again.

2009-02-11T00:39:00.002+08:00

bro has left for further studies.
he left once during his ns for brunei for 9 months.
now he is leaving for 2 yrs.
i miss him.
i really do.
i cried again.

i wish u all the very best in ur studies.
i really miss u, bro.

10/02/09

belated.

2009-01-04T12:59:00.003+08:00

belated MERRY XMAS, HAPPY belated NEW YEAR guys! =D

get to spent white xmas this yr.
however, it seems like just another day.
because japan doesn't really celebrate xmas. oh well.

exams are coming.

new year - just a simple celebration at home (playing wii). haha.

it's better to keep life simple cause life is unpredictable. ((:

it's just another day

2008-12-16T11:28:00.002+08:00

2 mid-term tests down.
1 essay, 1 report to go.

life is still the same.
still looking forward to this weekend. ((:

pleasekeepmestrong.

long weekend.

2008-12-05T11:08:00.005+08:00

no sch from fri to tues. =D
however, there are 2 tests, 1 essay and a lab report to do. =/

Fong's belated bday!

first group photo with all our love ones. ((:
a friendship i treasure.
though we seldom meet up, the feelings remains.
in fact, we are much closer to one another than in the primary sch days.
i hope this friendship will remain like this, forever.

my pretty girl friends,
i'm glad to have u girls.
very much thanks to the 'skipping club', Ms Koh.
remembering the lines of 'whipping' marks which we always have after our training.
our hand made skipping ropes.
the number of trophies that we won for our school and in our school.
those were the days.

off to do my work!(:
true friends never bear grudges and never leave.

i need some tanning sessions.
anyone? (:

weekend.

2008-11-30T23:25:00.004+08:00

yesterday was the day. (:
morning woke up at 6am
preparing myself for a friendly match.
fun!
nice team mates.
not really close but there was team spirit. :D

afterwhich met up with boy. (:
did some work before meeting my pri sch frens and their bfs.
a date i've always been longing forward too.
a group of 10!
went to vivo and it's vivo 2 years anni so there were fireworks. :D
hang out till around 1am plus.
but only slept at 3am.

woke up at 7.30am
prepare for another friendly match.
was damn shag.
nice game.
reached home only at 7pm.

Long and tired but nice weekend. ((:
alright got to get back to work now.
jia you!

suddenly i feel that life is so unpredictable.
everything in life is.
everything changes.
we, human change.
our environment changes.
our eating habit changes.
the way we dress changes.
almost everything.

i guess we just have to learn to be much more flexible.

i'm looking forward to the next weekend!!!! ((:
till then. tata!

my loves.

2008-11-22T11:39:00.003+08:00

time flies.
it's going to the 4th week of my sch.
sometimes i still ponder if i've made the right choice.
however i've made 2 close friends and we always hang out together. ((:
i'm glad that to have them.

on the other hand,
one of my dear cousin completed his A's.
another of my cousin scored very well for his PSLE.
so are my twin cousins whom did very well in their exams.

i wish my whole family will remain like this forever
closer than before and never be apart.
throughout my 20 years of life i finally realise what happiness means,
having a happy family.

sch life is stressful
but i'm glad that i've a caring family and wonderful friends, not forgetting my boy.

from the bottom of my heart
i would like to wish a very happy birthday to you.
boy, happy 20th birthday. ((:
thanks for all the support you gave all these while.
may ur wishes come true.
loves.
i wish to walk with you hand in hand as long as the time allow us to.

Insensitive guys

2008-10-25T15:28:00.004+08:00

gals are usually more sensitive than guys.
how true is it?
don't you guys think that gals are usually much more sensitive.
esp in a relationship, quarrals always end up with, why guys are so insensitive.
they don't know how we gals feel and always thinks that we are so troublesome/unreasonable/irritating etc.

and now after a stupid quarrel with my brother i begin to think, are we gals asking for too much.
probably a little too much but aint girls born to be loved or rather pampered.
but that's only to an extent.
my brother doesn't has any expression on whatever he says but he does has a gd temperament.
sometimes i really hate him like abcdegf
but most of the time i am thankful to have him as my brother.
then this lead me to think, gals are flickered minded too.

sometimes i wish he could be more understanding and slightly more sensitive.

do u think "a hungry man is an angry man"?
this statement applies to me.

i am very grateful to have two wonderful aunts whom i always complain about.
the ones who really care for me when i needed them.
be it lending a listening ear and cooking simple dish for me when i am sick etc.
they are the best aunts i could ever ask for.

and not forgetting my mum too. ((:

orientations.

2008-10-24T11:19:00.007+08:00

didn't attend the orientation at sentosa for psychology students on tues.
thinking that i'll feel out of place, don't know for what reason.
i think i've missed out lotsa fun.

on wednesday.
met quite a number of people during the sch orientation, or rather make new friends,
and when i asked if they went on tues, almost all the locals did.
they were like saying hi here and there whereas i have to go around n ask for their names.
the orientation was kinda screwed up though.
i was there practically the whole day from 9am-6pm
choosing my module, discussing with fellow friends,
that took us 3 hrs.
finally i'm able to settle down with Jude, future-classmate. ((:
to add on, MOST(like 3/4 of the locals) of them speaks english.
eg, most chinese-speaking singaporean(including myself) pronouns as maths but they pronouns as ma-th.
or three they pronouns as th-ree.
anyway, only 40% of the psychology students were locals.
afterwhich, headed for volleyball trainning
played for half an hour only due to bad weather.

on thursday.
headed back to school at 1pm.
for some academic writing which was delayed for an hour.
which means it suppose to start at 2.30pm it starts at 3.30pm.
as many locals didn't even come to school, a few of us decided to grab some books and go off.
bought a psychology book which is ~~freaking~~ so heavy, cost 68 bucks.
left and headed to anchor point followed by ps to celebrate wy's and mag's belated birthday.
it's been so long since the 4 of us meet up togehter.
took lotsa picture cause we wouldn't know when will be our next meet up. LOL.
i suppose all of us enjoyed ourselves very much.

though the 4 of us haven't been meeting up like 1-2 years.
the feeling reminds. ((:
i do treasure friendships.

i'mwaiting~~anixously~~patientlyforsundaytocome.
<3

ORD - 18/10/08.

2008-10-20T01:20:00.002+08:00

yes. finally ORD from my aunt's office.
will have to be back for reservist when my bro goes to Melbourne for his futher studies.

this week will be the orientation week and sch will be starting on the 28 of October.
by the way, deepavali has changed from 28 to the 27 October. take note! ((:

went to watch 20th century with boy n wei ming.
ming n i fell asleep during the movie.
onli boy enjoyed it.
=/

ialwaysenjoyyourcompany.
lookingforwardtoallbookoutdays.
iwillwaitforyoutillthedayyouORDandcelebratewithyou.
((:

family & friends.

2008-10-18T01:20:00.004+08:00

The 2 most important groups of people we all need. ((:
treasure them well.

had dinner with most of my cousins together with my big aunt today.
it's been quite a while since we gathered together.
we are no longer as close as before, but there is one thing for sure we will never become stranger.

like i have said before,
ilovefamilygatherings.

have not been meeting up with my friends lately due to work.
i'm sorry.
i do miss u guys.

anyway i hope all of u are doing fine.
meet up soon! ((:

love, we all need.

2008-10-03T14:29:00.003+08:00

at a certain part of your life,

have u ever felt lonely,
have u ever felt useless,
have u ever felt that no one understands u,
have u have felt that everything is going against your way,
have u ever felt that y are others having a wonderful life but not u,
have u ever felt that whatever u did is never right,
have u ever felt that maybe u shouldn't be born in this world,
there will be a never ending list.

all of the above came across my mind not once but many times.

but if u are able to sit down n think.
others might be worse than u.
yes, there might be people who, most of the time are happy
that's because they solve problems and not running away from it.

cold war with bro.
i think there's a problem with me.
or rather both party.
i hate to be ordered around.
i hate to rush around.

signing off.

Formula 1

2008-09-29T00:15:00.003+08:00

got to watch a slight part of F1 at my aunt's friend place.
at high street.
the building was meant for office usage but the owner decorate it for functions.
the decoration of the house was awesome.
the whole floor was theirs'.
the food was nice.
the scenary was almost perfect just that it's alittle too high(29th floor).
i enjoyed myself very much. ((:
it makes me wanna aim for higher goals.

i love the engine sound.
i love it when the racers drift.
anyway F1 is damn exciting don't u agree?!

Monday is here!
soon it's gonna be wed. ((:

keeping myself occupied

2008-09-24T23:31:00.003+08:00

been planning stuffs n make myself real busy.
so by the time i reach home, i'll be tired.

awwwwwwww...
if only i'm able to go ns for 2 yrs too. =/

askmeout,willyou?
iwantacar.
iwannadriveallofyouaround.
imissyou,boy.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

2008-09-21T23:52:00.011+08:00

had a party at a yatch. sun chasers.
nice experience. ((:

boy is joining OCS in 7 hrs time.
he got to report at 0700 hr.
luckily Hari Raya falls on 1 Oct.
means he will have 1 day off n i'll be able to see him again in less than 2 weeks. ((:
hopefully i'll be able to rent a car just for that day. :D

boy,
we have been together for about 3 an a half years.
we were in the same pri sch, sec sch and polytechnic, unfortunately we will not be able to graduate in the same University.
but i'm glad we both have got a place in a University.
i'm so happy for you when you got into NTU. ((:
congrats to u in getting into OCS. i'm proud of you, boy.

back then in pri sch(the period we met),
we get to know each other by looks,
you will be up on stage doing storytelling n i'll be up on stage to collect my medals from competition.
we've never been in the same class nor talk to one another before.

in sec sch(the period we get together),
was it fated that we were in the same class for all 4 yrs?
we don't interact with one another during sec 1, 2 & 3.
however things start to change in sec 4, somehow.
i started to join your click, POJ, having shuli as my lao po. ((:
at that point of time we were merely friends.
after O'levels feelings developed n we got together.
things weren't going very smoothly at that point of time.

in poly(the crucial period),
we were in different courses.
we met different people.
we had different thinking.
we had different groups of friends.
you had yours i had mine.
things weren't smooth in yr 1 as well.
things got better only during mid of yr 2 going to yr 3.

now NS for you (the period we support one another),
our thinking changed.
we start to treasure each other's company.
plan for the future.
attending family gatherings.
going out with friends.
be it yours or mine, we are able to click with individual groups of friends well. ((:
most importantly, supporting one another.
and, your absence makes my heart grow fonder.

for now,
ijustwanttogrowoldwithyou,mylove. <3

a day to remember 19.9.08 - double happiness

2008-09-19T23:29:00.007+08:00

PASSED! ((:

first attempt.
merely passed though.
thx to my stupid mistakes.
ugly photo.

but still,
THANKS A MILLION TO THOSE WHO HAVE ENCOURAGE AND WISHED ME! :D
will drive u guys around if there's a chance. HA!

imissdrivingwithhimbesideme.
ilovedrivingbecauseofhim.
hetaughtmerightfromscratch.
heismyinstructor,Mr Lum C.W. ((:

Thanks to his scoldings, naggings, reminders, lame jokes, stern face, teachings, guidance, etc.
i am LUCKY to have him. ((:
as he always says trainee who get him is unlucky which is not true.
he looks fierce but is soft inside. ((:
someone whom i'll always remeber whenever i'm driving. :D
Thank you so much. ((:

congrats to boy who got in to OCS. ((:
he did us proud.
life is gonna be tough but i believe he can make it through.
training offically starts on mon, 21 October 2008.
jia you! :D
loves.

a fruitful weekend.

2008-09-15T09:31:00.004+08:00

went for a weekend cruise. (:
fri - sun.
nothing much.
simply casino as entertainment.
played jackpot, tai sai(big small) & blackjack.

jackpot with a min back of $0.05.
tai sai with a min bet of $10.
blackjack with a min bet of $25.

in my point of view,
the least min of bet the harder to win money.

Sunday
my xiao jiu called.
saying that i'll be joining them to japan during the last 2 weeks of dec.
but it's during my sch term.
so he asks me to skip soon for that 2 weeks.
it is a winter season for japan.
hopefully i'll be able to see SNOW. ((:

xiao jiu ask boy to join.
boy wanted to join but he can't.
anyway he has already been to JAPAN TWICE.
aint he fortunate.

had family gathering to celebrate mid-autumn festival.
boy joined.
though we didn't have bbq.
but boy had to bbq some chicked drumlets.
my aunts ask him to do so.
as there is a saying"there's no free lunch". HA!
after bbq-ing he stinks.
after dinner my xiao yi started coming out with some riddles.
LOL.
everything ended at 9pm as my cousins got to attend sch the next day.
((:

congrats to boy's POP, on wed 10/09/08.
driving test on fri 19/09/08.
sch starting in oct.

time flies.

ilovefamilygathering. ((:

happy teacher's day

2008-09-01T22:03:00.003+08:00

it's been many many years since i celebrate teacher's day.

primary sch days was the best.
secondary - not realli.
polytechnic - so so.
i miss my primary teachers.

their care and concern.
their patient.
n of coz their teaching.
i'll always remember.

most of them have retired and i hope they are doing fine. ((:

to all teachers in the world,
a very happy teacher's day (:

another book out day.

2008-08-31T14:46:00.003+08:00

Monday to Thursday
work,
driving,
dinning with clients.
that's abt it.

Friday
after work met up with polymates.
westmall.
dinning at burger king.
movie, wall-e. nice (:

Saturday
pack my room.
lunch with aunts n cousins.
nap after lunch.
usual routine
mahjiong with boy n his friends. (:
boy bought a red samsung mp3 for me at the IT fair with lots of free gift. ((:

Sunday
exploring the mp3.
cook mushroom maggie mee for lunch.
slack.
preparing to go out soon. (:

weather is bad.
driving test in 3 weeks time.
i want a break.

i'm a happy girl. ((:

long bus rides, i miss

2008-08-25T21:13:00.005+08:00

i had a small dispute with my aunt ytd.
i was thinking if i was in the wrong.
if i make the wrong choice.

there was a small gathering with my poly mates.
we were suppose to go west coast but the rain was heavy therefore we meet at "where we first know each other" which is ngee ann poly.
had pot luck.
although there are only a few of us but we enjoyed.
great company. (:

i actually took 61 from the high court to ngee ann.
long bus rides.
though it took me 1 hr
but i dun feel so because there will many things on my head.
i was thinking if i had made the wrong choice going.

but because of them i dun think i've made the wrong choice.
=)

have u heard of the blind 5 years old Korean talent pianonist, Yoo Ye-Eun and the 6 years old Great Britain talented singer, Connie Talbot.
they are simply WONDERFUL!

if u are free please spare 4 mins to watch this video. u will not regret it. =)
*remember to stop the background muisc first. enjoy!

i miss.

2008-08-19T22:55:00.008+08:00

i miss SCHOOL-ing.
i miss going to classes.
i miss chatting with classmates.
i miss teasing/talking to teachers/lecturers.
i miss having breaks with classmates.
i miss hanging out after school with classmates.
i miss carrying exercise books/textbooks/lecture notes/pencil box.
i miss carrying school bags.
i miss sleeping in class.
i miss taking buses with classmates.
i miss running on tracks.
i miss playing volleyball/basketball on court.
i miss camps.
i miss outings during holidays with classmates.
i miss gossiping during lessons time.
i miss sneaking out of classrooms buying snacks.
i miss celebrating birthdays with classmates.
i miss doing homeworks/tutorials.
i miss preparing exams.
i miss i miss i miss i miss sooooo many things...in school.

school starting in 2 months. (:
iwanttostudyilovestudyingiwanttoscore.

dengue

2008-08-13T12:35:00.002+08:00

i was down with a fever for the past 1 week.
thx to the dengue.
was admitted to the hospital for gd 3 days.
spending national day in a hospital.
not something great coz i was feeling real bored.

now that i'm feeling much better i can't go anywhere.
have to stay at home till next week.
got to keep away from sports for a month.
driving test getting near.
vball competitions i no longer looking forward.

dengue sucks. don't they. =(
i miss going out.
i miss watching movies.
i miss playing volleyball.

bring me out will u?

my love, my happiness.

2008-08-03T23:54:00.004+08:00

it's been almost a month.

busy with trainings, work, driving, competition, family n boy.
didn't have much time for my friends.
*sorry BF! soon soon ok. ur double date with ur laogong. =D

i had my driving last week.
my instructor is a ~~weird~~ funny man.
this is how it goes.
when i was driving at the main road i saw an old lady's head bleeding sitting at the bus stop.

me: omg i think the old lady had a fall.
him: where?
me: there at the bus stop.
him: oh..
me: should we go down n help.
then he stared at me in a weird way.
him: u know first aid?
me: erm.... nope.
him: then?!...
me: but i know how to stop the blood from flowing.
him: how?!...
me: add pressure to the wound?
him: who doesn't know.
i was like -_-
i mean that the basic. LOL.
me: ok.
thinking that luckily there are still passerby who are considerate to help the old lady.
he added.
him: actually i'm afraid of blood. i'm timid.
me: huh?... but u r a erm... guy?
him: y.. guy is also a human right.
me: yes.. true. but usually older guys aint scare of blood.
him: -_-
me: okokok.
him: do u know those who are afraid of blood are usually kind hearted and have sympathy. though i might look fierce at time but i'm actually very soft inside.
me: hahahaha.. really?!?!?
me: actually i'm also scare of blood. LOL!
he is a nice instructor though he looks realli FIERCE when he doesn't smile.
but i learn a lot from him. =)
then the journey continues.
then during the lesson he started talking about the 7th month and his experience.

i've been enjoying my driving lessons for the past 3 months. =D
it's always the same instructor.hahah..
it's not becoz i have a fix instructor.
it's becoz my group has onli 1 instructor which is him. =)

boy came to my house n bought food for me past midnight cause i did not had my dinner.

wat more can i ask for. it's more than i expected.
imissboyimissboyimissboy. =(

05 07 08

2008-07-07T00:13:00.008+08:00

best birthday ever. =D

the mark of my first 2.

i was happy very happy.

i love all the presents i have receive this yr. it's either RED my fav or DUMBO my love!

awwww... I LOVE ALL OF THEM!

mum did a red crystal necklace for me and gave me a red soft toy with a heart shape =)

BF and BF's bf gave me a RED everlast watch. i love it. =)

Fong gave me a red purse long ago. coz she knows that i like it. thx sis! =D

Czarina, ceya n toad gave me an elmo n a red crumpler! =DDD

boy gave me dumbo this yr! 2 pendant of dumbo. n this HAPPY BIRTHDAY dumbo which bf actually pointed it out to boy. but sadly it can't move when it suppose to and boy actually throw away gd battery coz he tot that it is the battery that is giving prob. I LOVE THE OTHER 2 PENDANTS! blogger is slow today so shall post it out another day. =)

and... i've receive a pair of red shoe from aunt and 2 ang pows from big aunt n bro!

THANK YOU so much for those who had spend my birthday with me!

-bf x 2, bf's bf, ceya, czarina, toad, my aunties, my uncles, my mum, my bro, my cousins.

for those who had wish me!i really appreciate very very much.(those msg are still store in my hp! ((:)

ps: shuli! (the one who always try to be first to msg me. hahaha.. this time round you got it! prizes to be given. LOL! i miss u. meet up soon? pls.. ((: )

the past few days i feel as if i'm the happiest gal in the world. it's becoz of them. every single one who spend some time to spare me. those who celebrated with me and of coz those who had wished me.

THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH GUYS!
it is something priceless.

every single msg that i receive i was smiling to myself like an idoit but it's worth it.

it's a feeling telling me that you are not forgotten, my fren. ((:

awwwwww... i juz can't express those WONDERFUL feelings. =D

i'm looking forward to my pri sch babes outing on this coming fri!!! =D
i miss them.

thank you everyone. ((:

a post

2008-06-18T10:25:00.005+08:00

back from KL trip. =)
it was fun but short. =(
i enjoy all their company prolly it would be better if boy was able to join us.
more to come, i believe! =D

recently a lot of my frens were attach.
haha.. meaning that it's nearer to my wish.
i always wanted to have couple outing with my ladies.
shuchen, u too rite. =)

i am extremely happy for them.
i hope all of their bf aint a ~~jerk~~ bully.
so far so gd. all my pretty ladies are happy with wat they have!

awww...i love them all! <3

if only

2008-06-13T12:34:00.002+08:00

boy called last nite.
it seems like he is having so much fun.
if only gals can choose to do ns too. as in not signing bond (5 yrs) it would be gd if it's 2 yrs too.

i drag myself to wake up.
i hate waking up doing things that i dislike n look at pple's stupid face.
fuck.
i know u r very capable.
but dun keep showing that STUPID face n ignore when pple talk to u.
******* *****

4 days

2008-06-08T23:11:00.002+08:00

i'm missing him already.

5 more days to KL.
mixed feeling.
i know i need a break that's all.

went east coast park! =D
with shu chen n michelle.
blading blading blading
fun fun fun.
volleyball after that.
more next time pls...

time passes damn fast when u r having fun.

i dun like working life.
suddenly i love studying life.

prolly running tml.

05/06/2010

2008-06-05T20:50:00.005+08:00

exactly 2 yrs later, boy's ord. =)
looking forward.
a little to fast but at least i'm looking forward to it.

somethings might change u'll nvr know but this post will be here forever.
but at this point of time i'm very sure what i am typing what i am thinking.
yes i do love him.
i know i seldom type abt my life with him.
not that i didn't bother
but i dun find a need too.
i realise he has neglected his friends and
i have neglected some of my friends too.
i'm sorry guys.
he is always trying his best and making me happy thus neglecting his frens.
i am trying too.
sometime i do feel that i'm overboard.
he always says " we have to give and take".
he is jux my special one.

2 years later, i hope it's gonna be the same.
i dun mean anything i juz believe in fate.

take care boy.
i miss u, botak. =)

BF

2008-05-26T00:12:00.002+08:00

i'm glad i have both bf .
sounds weird?
bestfriend n boyfriend.

today is BEST FRIEND 20th BIRTHDAY!
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LINNET LIM SHI YA
happy birhday to you!

this post is esp for her. =)
shall see you tml BF!

Q & A

2008-05-18T23:29:00.004+08:00

1) what do you want the most now?
i wanna have a holiday trip NOW.

2) who is the person you trust most?
=) the usual ones.

3) are you in love?
very much.

4) if you have a dream to come true..what is it?
live happily.

5) do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes, sometimes.

6) whats ur goal for this year?
get a driving license

7) do you believe in eternity?
to a certain extend

8) have you ever broke a person's heart that he/she wanna commit suicide?
Not that i know of. anyway i dun think i'm so powerful.

9) what feelings do you love most?
feelings which makes me feel good.

10) what are the requirements from ur other half?
he is juz fine.

11) what kinda feelings u hate most?
feelings which makes me upset.

12) do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Yes definitely. every single one of them.

13)What do you want to do in future?
police? hahaha. =X

14) what is the most important thing in ur life?
people around me.

15) what are you looking forward to?
a holiday trip.

16) who do you hope to be always there for you?
you . =)

17) your favourite character?
DUMBO. =D

Then add 9 people in your listand list them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their Chat box that he/she has been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have a blessing from all.okay no strings attached do it when you are free yea..

People tagged : people who feel like doing it.

rants

2008-05-06T12:08:00.003+08:00

the fucked up me.

040508

2008-05-04T23:45:00.002+08:00

it's been long since i edit my blog.
so i decided to change my banner.
i spent like 2hrs plus juz to do that banner due to many reasons.
but i'm glad it looks nice.
*to qp: thx for ur comment. ((: appreciated.

i'm quite happy with my life at the moment.
i'm realli glad to have all of my gal frens around me.
but it's been very long since i meet up with them.
like bf, xy, qp, my pri sch click n so on.
have been having last min meet up with wai ying. =D

boy will be going through man's stage plus some slimming sessions soon. (:

Read this

2008-04-18T17:47:00.003+08:00

this is the biggest. click for the biggest-est.
hope enjoy it my dear friends! =D

i'm happyyy

2008-04-09T13:48:00.005+08:00

it's been so long.
so so long since we met up after the last day of sch.
i miss p1a5.
i miss those times we play together like pri sch kids.
i love each n everyone's company.
i'm going to go to p1a5 chalet!
we r gonna meet up n enjoy to the fullest before the guys go to ns.

for 3 days 2 nites.
wont be working on thurs n fri =D

now it's 2pm.
4 more hours to knock off.
5 more hours b4 training.
8 more hours b4 going to join in the fun in chalet.

hope time passes fast for the next coming 4 hrs.
cause i can't WAIT!

it's gonna be fun fun FUN!
updates when i'm back! hopefully =X

n i will be a happy gal 4 hrs later till next mon blues. ((:

终于

2008-03-27T16:10:00.006+08:00

i realise i have lost touch with chinese. as in wrinting form. do u?

now that i think back.
if onli i could get in to jc. i might be in uni 1 going to 2.
via versa i might flung n nowhere to go.
i might be able to still continue to play as a sch team.
i might still be able to wear sch uniform.

but it doesn't matter anymore.
coz i've taken my path to poly and i have graduated in a way.

result wise wasn't bad wasn't very gd either. ((:

hoping n hoping n hoping to get into a local uni.
otherwise i will juz have to drop a visit elsewhere.

i wanted to give up on my old workplace that contains my happiness/sadness or wat-so-ever.
in a way quit. i know i have told many that how much i hated that place how it had changed for the worse. but there r still nice pple around. plus i realli hate to learn all over again. so currently holding up to 2 jobs. my aunt's office n that job.

times flies isn't it?
psle, O's, A's/Diploma everythings over.
next step Degree? under consideration.

p1a5's class chalet coming up. finally. hope it's not gonna be screwed up. =D
i miss every single one of them. SERIOUSLY.

do u know wat is dumbo in chinese. =)
小飞象

alrite. till then.
再见。
敏芬爱你们
lol.

my little precious.

2008-03-01T22:11:00.006+08:00

gd long day.

trainings *thumbs up!
bf gave me something she got from hongkong!
thank u so so much BF. loves.
wat more can i ask from her. she knows me BEST.
((:

TADA!

my little precious.

DUMBO

alrite. my collection of DUMBOs n my trophies.
looks little coz i juz stuff/squeeze/compress them. hahaha.
my collection given by my loves, my beloved frens.

oh ya not forgetting my dear lao po, wang shu li gave me a mini vending machine of dumbo for Xmas! one who always give me dumbo related stuff on every occasions. ((:

ranging from singapore,japan and hong kong.

my 5 precious that share the same bed as me everynight. ((:

i know it's kinda not practical but i LOVE DUMBOs.
reason behind i have big ears n i'm proud of them! ((:
i love the storyline of dumbo too.

ps. dumbo r difficult to find in Singapore therefore i appreciate them much much more. (:

i believe there r more to come!
coz boy went to Japan. ((:
i miss him though.

ps we went to make jersey too. FINALLY. =D

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

do u? ((:

dun be jealous that i've such WONDERFUL frens n of coz bfs (both).

coz i'm sure u have too. =D

a whole new day.

2008-02-16T23:45:00.002+08:00

ok. i have not be studying seriously.
yup. i'm still stuck on the same old page.

study-mood, where have u been?
pls come back tml.
it's time to START mugging.

i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored.
i wanna go overseas.
grant me this wish will ya? ((:

anyway the ans is a cordless phone.

belatedValentine

2008-02-15T15:36:00.002+08:00

happy ~~belated~~ valentine's day my frens! ((:

i've got the weirdest but most practical present i can ever ask for. hahaha..
go guess it. (:

head is spinning due the upcoming exam plus uni application. =(
that's abt it.

not forgetting,
I LOVE YOU
to be said on every valentine's day peeps!
to her, him, them, they n you you you. ((:

awwwwwwwwwwwww...... my love

2008-02-08T22:43:00.000+08:00

JAY CHOU

hehehe..
mylove mylove mylove. =X
i love his songs. ((:

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR peeps!

1st feb!

2008-02-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

PAY DAY!
ya. but i'm aint looking forward. =/
coz i know it's not gonna be as much as b4.

few more weeks to graduation.
awwwwwww..... hate this feeling when u got no where to go.

till then.

somedays i ponder.

2008-01-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

have u ever wonder if u would do better for
this, that, those or wat so ever stuff.

have u ever wonder y even though u tried ur very best n nothing turns out rigth n everyone starts pushing all the blames to u.

have u ever wonder y u r born on ur birthday in this country in this family.

have u ever wonder y would u end up in this state rite now.

have u ever wonder if things r better off without somethings.

i have. i have wonder n ponder every single thing in my life. but i realise that things happen becoz there is a reason behind it. it's juz a matter of time for u to realise them.

but sometimes it's juz to difficult/lazy/can't be bothered to look for the reason n run away with it. in the end, u r the one ending up with no where.

if onli i could be a better me. ((:

2008-01-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

somethings are not meant to be said.
somethings u need not know.
somethings u juz have to keep it to urself.
somethings it's better that u choose not to know.

it's better this way, sometimes.

strangers, are your family members you yet to know.
sounds familiar? (:

BACK.

2008-01-15T08:52:00.000+08:00

i mean back to blogging. ((:

3 more days to the end of FYP.

shuli, if u r free on free do come down n play my ball game. i'll be waiting. lol. nnnnnnnnnn.... shi yuen booth is juz beside mine! fate. ((:

the worse thing is that i got to wear formal. shit man.
imgine 3 yrs of not wearing for all my presentation (as my presentation dress code is always smart casual) till this very last yr i need to wear formal. sigh. i tot i could get away for not wearing formal but too bad.

to think that this coming thurs is the last day
- we need not have to come back on mon n tues anymore.
- it's gonna be a 3 days week.
- we might not be seeing each other much longer.
- we might drift apart.

nvm abt this.
it's not over till fri. ((:
hopefully nothing screw up.
wish me luck.