minnfenn ♥ 敏芬

wat a long week. i'm tired of everything. real tired. my life is in a mess. dunno wat i'm thinking of. dunno wat i'm doing. dunno lar, everything seems to go hay-wired. i'm in a very confuse state. haiz.. if onli everything has already plan properly for me n i'll juz live it as it is. where i wont have any trouble, wont have to think.

now, i'm thinking why am i like this. why am i acting like this. a gal who needs freedom so much. can't i juz be like other gals who juz stay with their bf 24/7. whom r more loyal. i admit, i'm loyal but at the same time i wans freedom. freedom as in hanging around with my frens, be it boys or gals. i need frens. frens coz me to cry too when they leave me. i have experience b4. suddenly i feel that i have become emontional. i have no idea when n why i became like this. i wan back my old self. where i always keep things to myself, stay in my own world n of coz much more stronger than now.

am i selfish, greedy or wat? i wan freedom, frens n of coz i wan him t0o. but i dun wan to be guilty whenever i go out with my frens n neglecting him or going out with a guy fren which it's not a gd impression. i have no idea who i am n wat i wan.

whenever i'm out with u i feel happy. very happy. u even allow me to do things that a bf will not allow their gf to do, or many very few of bf will allow that. one of it is allowing the gf to go out with guys. though u say u wont control me n allow me to go out, but u'll still be jealous. i dun blame u, but i'll feel guitly for doing this to u.

wat is luv? how do u know if u luv that person? if there's a reason u luv that person izzit call luv? then wat izzit if u luv that person w/o any reason? it's luv t0o? this feeling is so freaking powerful that causes pple to die, depression, happy, sad n of coz xin fu too.

*if u r reading this, i know u'll feel sad. but i juz wanna say out how i feel. i'm sorry.

♥, yours truely

finally i have time to update! it's so stressful these few days, got projects, reports as well as his bday. lolx.. nearly become insane but luckily didn't. =X

*sorry wee eng, the 'TAGGED' thingy i'll do when i'm free kkz. so so so s0rry! haha.. thanx for choosing me. coz u still remember me ya? of coz i know u do. =X * alrite, i'm gonna be insane soon. haha..

can't recall wat happen the last few days, but it's a stressful life. dun wish to recall. lolx.. finally, 22/11/05 is over. it's was his 17 BIRTHDAY! did a photo album, cake, give him a jacket, anime. haha.. cost a bomb! but not as much as he spent on my bday. =X but guess he was kinda happy last nite. celebrated his bday at my house with wei liang, jeremy, wy, shuli, brian! had quite a lot of fun, though the nite is kinda short. =)

alrite, got to rush to do my hw le. will try n update! haha.. TAKE CARE!!!

HAPPY BELATED 17th BIRTHDAY DEAR!!!

congrates to those who have finish their O's ytd!

it seems like i juz finish my O's ytd n the feeling was juz so so great.

seriously, TIME flies. haha.. *wink*

♥, yours truely

WAT A BAD DAY.

wat wrong with today? everything around me seems to go hay-wired. everything seems well in the morning.

until noon..
went with my classmate to get our toolkit. which cause 110 bucks! kaoz..so damn ex. while unpacking my tools n put them nicely in the tool kit box my left eyebrown was like keep 'jumping' n i cut my hand. -_-''' ok, it's juz a small cut. but it's the start of my BAD DAY.

went into class, everything went smoothly n i ask my partner wat does it mean is ur left eye lid is 'jumping' she said it was a bad sign. but mine is EYE-BROWN not eye lid. guess it's the same.

went to meet him. coz he need to go home n get his stuffs. on the bus, there were 3 idiots(whom he calls them) were on the bus. they r those i would call CHILDISH kids. (they are his buddy class peeps who dislikes him. becoz he spoke up for his classmates when they bully them. i think they r juz childish pple who juz not happy with him.) they took pic of him in the bus standing with me. so he askes me not to turn back. n i didn't (couldn't get to see how they look like) he was very angry at that moment. who wont be angry. they r juz freaking childish. finally, we got down the bus. still, i didn't turn back n take a gd look at those 'KIDS'. can't be bothered anyway. but he was realli very sad. he was afraid that they might do something to me. *dun worry, i'll be fine alrite? cheer up boy! u got to be strong ok. =)*
[hmmm.. sometimes i juz feel that we should have a low profile in life. but it's not wrong either to stand up for ur frens. haiz.. how nice if there are no CHILDISH 'KIDS' in this world. which seems impossible.]

after that went to orchard to meet shuli. went to taka, cine n hereen. had dinner at pastamania n saw my fren. he was juz sitting infront of me with his back facing me. sms him after i left pasatamania to confirm if he was the one. couldn't get to see each other at cine coz we keep going to diff direction. maybe we r juz not fated? after looking at blossom clothes, we went to hereen. n he told me he was at hereen too. haha.. he askes me to call him if i see him again. FATED! i saw him at the neoprint shop. didn't dare to call him directly coz he was with his group of frens, so i called his hp. LOLX! we keep walking round the neoprint shop to look for each other (that shop wasn't big at all) =X finally, we found each other. haha..

t0ok neoprint with shuli, dunno wat's wrong with our eyes today. all look so weird. then went to decorate, seats are provided for this machine with curtains covered. were decorating half way, then there is this group of malays came to disturb us. another bunch of 'KIDS'. we were sitting down n decorating suddenly, they juz sit back to back to us n push us. we were so damn freaking pissed. the 2 of us r mumbling vuglarities. asshole. n we gave up our seats n push it to them since they wan to sit so much. they even pull the curtains n disturb us. damn it. so freaking piss. make us so stress, can't even decorate our pic in peace.
[another bunch of freaking CHILDISH 'KIDS']

after decorating went straight out of hereen n went to look at bags. there's this mickey mouse comic strips bag(brownish) looks kinda nice. juz as we were thinking whether to buy, there's these 2 gals who saw this bag(black) too. we exchange. shuli n i decided to take the brownish one so were the 2 gals. haha.. n the new piece are left with onli 4. so lucky rite! lolx..

went down to lucky plaza, went to balaneo coz all jeans onli cost 25 bucks, usual prince 39 bucks. juz as we step in a sale gal started shouting 'welcome.........' (can't remember), shuli got a shock n she tripped at the stairs n of coz she scream. it was kinda loud but it's our natural reaction n everyone was like looking at her. that sales gal wore blue contact lenes so it's kinda scary. she kept looking at us. like so bu suang. kaoz.. dunno wat's her freaking problem.

that's all for my BAD DAY.

tml will be a BETTER DAY! =)

♥, yours truely

i juz got home. so hungry. so i shall make this post a quick one.

ytd, suppose to go to the IVP training (sch team) but i didn't go becoz i tot no one is going. haiz.. n guess wat, they r selecting for the sch team ytd. =( wat a waste. stupid me.

hmmm.. but i've accepted it. so maybe gonna join other CCA. any suggestion pple? =)

went for training juz now, my bag is damn heavy. kaoz.. got to bring 2 thick textbook 2 lecture notes, my stupid heavy notebook, clothes n shoebag. so heavy. guess i'm gonna be shorter if i carry on carrying this kind weight load n I WILL DIE!

alrite, enough of my complaints, going to eat my dinner now! take care guys.

my mum got 1 baby rabbit for me! hehe.. i ask her to get another one so that they can have babies next time! if anyone would like to have one, tell me n i'll reserve one for U! =)

♥, yours truely

i was too tired ytd, so didn't blog. went out for the whole day.

went to work at my aunt's office from 9.30 till 1pm. then had lunch with her till 2.45pm. since i dun feel like going home, i went to my cousin's house. coz he was sick. so juz go there n play with him for awhile. i got a feeling that my frens (those promoters) will be late so i leave at 3.30pm when i suppose to meet them at 3.30pm. haha.. juz as i step out the house one of them sms me n say all of them will be late. *phew*

we walk around orchard, took neoprint as well as using the background of machine at heeren n use digital to take. until we got scolded by the helper there. haha.. it was so fun. went to lucky plaza to play pool after that.

when we wanted to go n have dinner, one of my frens's bf was working at chimjs as a bartender ask us to go there. coz he was suppose to meet my fren at 9 then he can't extend to 10 then 2am. so we went scare later they quarrel. anyway, we onli sat outside n had our dinner there n her bf paid for everything which cost $65. so gd rite. the atmosphere is more of a cafe rather than a pub.

dear was worried, he was also angry that i went there. =( he came to fetch me though he was very tired n having fever after his work. he suppose to finish work at 12am but he rush to do everything juz to come n fetch me at 11.30pm. then had dinner with him n his father till 12.30 n they send me home. when i reach home i told my mum then i went to pub n she start saying stuff like they will spite ur drink or watever lar. listen till i become so piss. then dear called me n told me he was angry that i went to pub. haiz.. but luckily, everything has solved. =) n my bro called me up at 4am! to open the door for him. -_-''' n i heard his fren saying "so late le ur sis still awake ar?" i am SLEEPING! coz i forgotten to switch to silent mode. he was lucky.

is going pub something dangerous? n the thing is that i went there becoz my fren's 3 yrs bf is working there as a bartender. they keep saying they will spite our drink. that means we can't trust anyone in this world izzit? even if u go hawker they can also spite ur food n drink wat. haiz.. i still dunno wat's wrong. i didn't even went in where loud music r played though i feel like getting the experience. we were juz sitting outside. but the food there is very very delicious. =X

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♥, yours truely

weeee...... wat a stupid week. sch holiday sch holiday sch. hate it. so sianz. make me no mood to go to sch.

anyway, went out with shuli ytd. the amount she spent is abt the same as me. n she insisted that i didn't spent any! -_-''' (coz those that i spent on wasn't for me. =X but i'm still the one paying for it wat.) lolx.. i was such a blur sotong that i onli brought 15 bucks out w/o my POSB card. argh... so end up borrowing from shuli. haha.. we went orchard then bugis coz i've a mission to complete. =X (shuli! i already told him abt the one piece thing le. coz i was afraid he wont like it but it was the OPP.) hehex..

fri is a hell. can u imagine seeing the SAME lecturer for 5 hours! omg. that sux. but luckily it was practical. =P made a new fren today call.. erm.. almelia? not sure. haha.. my practical partner! tot that this is our first lesson so there is a high possiblity that we will be release early! but i was wrong. =( so can't pei him to go work. but after sch i went to buy dinner n sent it to his workplace. after that went to my pri sch best fren house to give her present. n celebrate her bday with her parents.

juz got home not long. tml is another long day. gtg sleep early. gd nitez folks! sleep early t0o!!! sweet dreamz.. tml will be a better day! =D

♥, yours truely

i didn't change my blog add afterall. coz i still prefer my old one. =)

starting of my 2nd sem. first lesson was my IS. no one is in the same class as me. loner. =( i onli know a gal whom i known from vball but we weren't close at all. so it kinda makes no diff.

went to watch exorcism of emily rose in nite with dear. though it was kinda scary it's worth ur money. it's one of the best movie i ever watch. after watching it was abt 11.15pm. his dad came n pick us up coz it was late. n i called my mum to come down n fetch me coz i was scare. haha.. n his dad ask y waste the money to watch n scare urself. lolx..

tues, went out with my mum, uncle n dear. it was alrite. went to pasar malam. so crowded. onli bought a handbag for my fren for her bday. =D

ytd, saw all my classmates. everyone still looks the same. except for a few. haha.. the lesson was so boring. abt electronic. argh.. my nightmare. lolx.. after that acc dear to work n rush home to change to go for my vball training at cc. after training chit chat with xiao yan, n went to look for him at his workplace at 11pm. =)

hmmm.. later gonna go out with shuli! =P

cya peeps! take care. n enjoy ur holiday. =D

♥, yours truely

juz change a new BLOGSKIN!~ as well as a new add. :))
this is my new add. link me here! thanx. =)

♥, yours truely