minnfenn ♥ 敏芬

he flew off.
off to Brunei.
i miss him.
send him off early in the morning.
feel like crying but i can't. got to be strong.
he is leaving me all alone with the complicated family for 6 months.
i'm got to face it all by myself.

things is going to get more complicated.
i wish someone will be there to help me
n understand how i feel.
i dun feel like coming home anymore.
there's no place that call 'home'.
i know avoiding will not solve the problem.
but i'm tired, i realli am.

i wish u were here to understand how i'm feeling.
i wish u know i was feeling sad n console me that my bro left.
but i know it's gonna be hard to let it happen.
i dun blame u. maybe u r very busy. take care.

kor, i miss u. though i didn't show out, i feel like crying when u went
into the departure hall. come home quick ok? take care of urself. i know
u will. becoz u've always be very independent. though we seldom talk
u r always the one i feel safe with. i miss u dearly. how i wish i could go
with u. u r no longer by my side to share all the problems we face in this
complicated family. i'll be strong n do the best i could. i've nvr regret to
have u as my big bro. i rather i was a younger bro than a sis. see u soon.
take care. come home safely n come home quick.

♥, yours truely

i'm confused.
save me pls. will ya?
haiz..
my life is in a total mess.
i juz wish n hope to be HAPPY.
one word 5 letters. izzit so hard?

bring me to a place far far away
n lead a simple & happy life.

todayisour1yr8mthsanni.iwonderifherealiseit.idoubtso.thenbeit.iamtired.ireallyam.
izzitwrongtocompare.ijuzwishtohavesomeonebymysidewheneverineedhim.
juzsomeonetoshowmorecareandconcernforme.iamafailuregf.

hatemeforallicare.forihatewhoiamtoo.//

♥, yours truely

back from chalet.
back from sch.

sch is HORRIBLE.
i have no friends in the class.
NONE, is the word.
the feeling i give to my class pple is like
loner, solo kia.
i nvr had this feeling b4, or maybe it's been so long since i have this feeling.
now i understand how those 'loner' feel.
i feel like crying.

there was one incident.
it was so happen that a few of my previous classmates's class was juz beside mine.
though we were seperated by a window
I WAS SUPER DUPER HAPPY.
is a joy that can't be define.
my previous classmates could see the joy i had.
however, 15 mins later they are able to leave.
my face totally change.
i was so sad.
=(
however, 15 min later i was release too.
=D was like super happy n called them to meet up.

LINNET LIM SHI YA agree to join the vball match.
HAHA! was super happy.
juz hope that she wont back out.
=X
net better dun uh.
coz i seriously miss playing with u. really.
it's been so long since i wan to play together with my old team mates.
hopefully i'm able to get to play with the REST soon.

alrite. i think that's all for now.
will update soon agian.
coz i seriously need something to share.

bye PEEPS! miss u all TONSs.

♥, yours truely

today is not a gd day.

super duper tired.
but couldn't sleep.

tml going chalet for 2 nites.
hope for the best.
make sure u(shi yuen) acc me uh!
LOL!

hate to be left alone sometimes.

thx darlings for being here STILL!
hehex.. =)
not regretting to step into qss anymore.
loves.

♥, yours truely

am i'm changing?
y do i feel so differently?
y do i feel as if i was treated differently as b4?
y dun i look forward to any class outing?
(no offence though)
y do i feel my life is getting more boring?
y do i feel i'm all alone in this world?

is it becoz of my work that i neglected my frens?
n cause me to quarrel with my aunties?
is it a bad thing to work?

but i feel happy when i work.
sometimes?

i feel so lost.
i feel like crying.
i am very sorry to my frens.
true frens r hard to find.
i feel that ALL my darlings r no longer close to me.
i feel so bad when i'm free then i look for them.

is it too late to ask all of u to be back by my side?
i need u all.
i love u all.
i miss u all too.
will u all forgive me?

poly is not that fun afterall.
i juz feel so weird suddenly.
i feel i'm no longer one of them.
it's hard to find close frens in poly.
no offences.
maybe i've realli changed.

♥, yours truely

sad..

lost my ez link n got to fork out 20 bucks.
class chalet coing got to fork out 30 bucks.
plus my blades 450.
my daily spending.
total 500++.
1 and a half month pay gone.

suddenly not in the mood of doing anything.
i am TIRED.
i need a BREAK.

haiz.

maybe pmsy soon.
or breakdown.

not to deny,
i miss him so.

♥, yours truely

It's been such a long time since i last blog.
mixed feelings after i came back from vietnam.
i was like as FREE as a BIRD when i was there.
though i wasn't that happy there wasn't that unhappy as well.

anyway, it's over. i miss the place n the children as well.
=(

back to spore.
working ALMOST everday.
it's my choice coz i rather not to rot at home n earn some $$

kinda got cheated for buying a $450 blade.
but i love my new blades. =)

went out with BF today.
watch rob-b-hood.
IT WAS NICE! u got to watch it.
funny + TOUCHING. very.

had nydc n talk n talk as usual. haha..
went home after that n play SIMS 2. =D

sleep early peeps!
sorry for not updating. i know u guys miss me. HA!
i MISS you too. =)

♥, yours truely