minnfenn ♥ 敏芬

ytd was BAD.
bad bad BAD.
busy doing my FYP
with my lecturer beside me helping me and i almot fall asleep.
and my float lecturer standing outside my project room waiting to talk to me abt the progress.
plus, my phone keeps ringing but dunno who called coz my phone screen was blank which is a gone-case. got to send for repair in a few days time.
my boss call to ask me for my schdeule.
(so pple if u happen to read do not sms me. coz i wont be able to read it.)
everything juz went so BAD.

after sch it was 7.30pm.
ama was late. waited for her at the bus stop.
with an ASSHOLE smoking.
not that i dun like smokers, i do have smokers as frens and they are nice pple.
not like that CHILDISH bastard.
f.
he knew i didn't like the smoke (somehow maybe becoz i cover my mouth n nose?)so he purposely went to the back of me and start blowing smoke towards me with a background sound(woo woo woo as if he is goona DIE).
i juz sit and act as if nothing happens.
he is a FB.(fat bastard) with his FG(fat girlfren).
n ya, i regretted for not remembering his ~~fucking~~ face.

got home. quarrelled with mum over small matter.
n off i went to bed.

BAD DAY.

♥, yours truely

i am so NOT used to staying at my current house.

sooo
panel review tml.
float got to be done by this week.

((:

♥, yours truely

alrite. i have not move totally but it's like 3/4 of my stuff was already at the other house.
so.. i'm gonna start staying there tml nite.
today shall/might be the last nite.
ya.. i'm gonna miss this place dearly.
haiz..
the memories left here gonna take it with me.
my childhood crush + frens not gonna forget them.
bad memories will be left behind though.
((:

i hope i could adapt.
at least i'm going to have a room of my own?
the BEST is where MY GIRLFRIENDS can stay over. ((:
with overnight mahjiong. HA!

my first dear fren Amalina who has a car of her own agreeds to help me
to move my stuff over today.
but i have my training.
should i go?
shall see first.
napping time!

GIRLFRIENDS stay over ya? ((:
n of coz 1 outing with u lao po.
congrats to u! <3s

♥, yours truely

FYP report finally done.
float next.
wisp next.

i'm tired.
i'm happy.
i miss u.
i love u.
can't wait for this week to END.

i'm an emo freak.
do u know? ((:

♥, yours truely

it's time for me to concentrate on my studies.
it's time to give up some of the stuff that i always hold on too.
it's time it's time to let it go.

it's time for me to wake up from my sweet dream.
it's time for me to move on.

house moved.

it's time for me to adapt to a new environment.
it's time for me to get used to the new route to n fro from sch.

it's juz time for me to do so many stuff.

thx gals for being here for me.
to let me know that i'm not alone.
i know i will nvr be alone when u gals r around.
thx u so so much. ((:
xy,sy,sf,wy......

the worst feeling is when u r feeling down, alone and u can't sleep at nite.
do u know?

♥, yours truely

breaking down soon?
ya.
i hate it so so much.
i dun wish to say words that will hurt.
so pls dun say word that hurt others too.
*shall not say further*
i would rather keep it to myself.
i'm used to it.
used to suffer pain by myself.

FUCK.
wat's wrong with me these few days.
i used to be strong. carefree.
my aunties r stressing me abt my result.
i mean who doesn't wanna do well.
i'm stressing myself as well.
everything seems to been neverending.
be it my projects (esp), n now even vball training i look forward too no longer cheer me up but stress me even more.
everyone's expectation is getting higher.
it's not an easy task when everything seems to be ur fault.
fuck. no matter wat i have to be strong.
i might look strong but deep inside me i'm crying.
who knows? no one except for myself.

i juz need a place to say out how i'm feeling now.
crying a form of destress. is helping me.
even when i cry i have to do it secretly.
so as not to have pple worrying.
terrible. the feeling is terrible.

i wish this term will end fast.

-worthless
-loser
-understatement
-retard
-dissappointment
-jealous
-burden
-in the way
-good-for-nothing
-selfish
-thoughtless
-pathetic
-lost
-stupid
-careless
-annoying
-sorry
this is wat make me up.

♥, yours truely

birthday over. ((:
thx for the pple who WISHED me.

i'll try n recall..

-TOCK SENG (who shares the same birthday as ME!)

-Jun ming

-Xiao yan

-Mellisa(vball)

-Shu wen

-Pierson

-brian

-shuli

-shi yuen

-Tsing Qi

-momo

-zf (rose mary)

-kk

-wee

-Rui Xiang

-li yun

-yan chin

-siew fong

-jing wen

-wei ming

-wee eng

-wai ying

-qiu ping

-zhou peng

-sally

-alan

-Lgene

-Irene

-Ai fen

-Pei Hong

-Jing Xian

-ama

-mei jun

-mellissa

-kat

-val

-Qin Yi

-benji
-Landon
-Jian Ying

-Zail

-melvin Zheng

-Terence

-mr koh

-mr toh

-hazal

-mr rszf

-MY BF! who actualli wish me 4 TIMES different places. HA! (sms, friendster, TAGBOARD, of coz HER BLOG too) i simply love her so so much. ((:

-MY FAMILY.

-guess there r a few more..sorry.. can't realli remember..

I LOVE ALL OF THEM.

omg omg.. i'm so touch when so many pple wish me ok.

it's like the FIRST time so many pple actally WISH me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

i'm a HAPPY GAL! ((:

undefine loves from everyone.

so touched.

~~my small celebration. ((:~~

~~05/07/88 12.15am~~

~~my boy gave me a HAMPER of DUMBOs which contains abt 15 stuffs of DUMBOs?~~

~~send it directly to workplace as i was there helping out.~~

~~spoilt some of his plan to surprise me. sorry boy.~~

~~oh well.. wat more can i expect from him.~~

~~simply loves.~~

my pri sch frens.(fong, yun, chin, wen)

OH MY they gave me such a LOVELY surprise.

met at spize on fri for dinner.

was going to ton at jing wen's place.

so after dinner i got to go back to collect my stuff to go wen's house.

played MAHJIONG till i almost fall asleep.

we didn't play money.

THEN! yun started saying timeout out of nowhere.

as i was feeling so tired i didn't realli bother n lie on the bed.

suddenly the light is off.

n there goes the 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' song with candles on the cakes walking towards me.

HAHA! i was so touched lar. omg omg. didn't cry though. nearly?

i can feel the love from everyone of them.

simply <3>

MY CAKE ON MAHJIONG TILES.

n they actually GAVE ME A NIKE jacket.

they are my candies. ((:

bf bf..

i miss u so.

so happy to see u wishing me ALMOST everywhere.

haha.. *touched*

love u gal.

miss u tons.... nvr be replace my dear BF. <3s

still remember '7' & '8'. ((:

POJ

when r we meeting up? next week?

i'ts been quite long since we last met.

shuliiiiii... ((:

LOVES!

P2A5

outing was cancel. there will still be next time rite guys?

((: many misses.

i enjoy my birthday week. millions of thx to u guys. ((:

<3s

♥, yours truely

BF wans me to do it. ((:

EACH PLAYER OF THIS GAME START OFF WITH 10 WEIRD THINGS, HABITS, OR LITTLE KNOWN FACTS ABOUT ONESELF. PEOPLE WHO GET TAG MUST WRITE IN THEIR BLOG 10 WEIRD THINGS, HABITS, FACTS, AS WELL AS STATE THIS RULE CLEARLY. AT THE END, YOU MUST CHOOSE 6 PEOPLE TO TAGGED AND LIST THEIR NAMES. NO TAG-BACK.

1) i've got a curve toe nail. u wont know unless u LOOK real closely.

2) only jacket gives me a sense of security.

3) i LOVE dumbo & red stuffs. ((:

4) i like looking at cute/pretty gals more than hunks. HA!

5) i LOVE looking at pple with DIMPLES!

6) i have serious MOODSWINGS.

7) i had my first crush when i was 6 yrs old. LOL.

8) my fav lines "I'm very tired", "wat's ur prob", "R U OK ANOT?" (learn from auyong). LOL! "nuts ar".

9) i miss my dad.

10) i always dream of u.....

HAHA! finally lar. next 6.
1) SHULI
2) SHI YUEN
3) QIU PING
4) XIAO YAN
5) KK
6) anyone who reads it? ((:

♥, yours truely

5 projs. sucks.
being leader sucks sucks sucks.
if onli.... mr RED u could console me, say silly jokes to me, make me smile, hug me.

silly me
dream on....

i wish this week would end FAST.

everything has change.
i dun feel the same anymore.
screwed up work place. ):

say i love u onli when u mean it
do u know? <3

♥, yours truely