moving on to the next phase...
and yes. I've finally receive my acceptance letter from Monash University. (:
despite upon signing up for my Master programme, the course coordinator said it will be a 'sure get' place as long as you didn't fail any, I still have fear in me that what if i can't get a placing?
I've already dropped out from my 4th yr course and heading straight for my Master without saving myself another pathway. it was indeed a dangerous move.
I was so afraid, esp when people start asking me so what i'm gonna do/be/whatsoever.
But now i can proudly say that yes, I will be a student in Monash University.
Anyway, when i post a statement that "moving on to the next phase" a few commented. what stunned me is a friend of mine commented that "nice, private?".
am i being sensitive? as she is from a local university.
then it cross my mind..... is there a difference between private and overseas?
i believe people will go 'WOW u are going overseas.', 'oh.. u are going to a private school', or 'which school are u going? NTU or NUS?'.
people are born like that aint they?
why don't they think before they talk?
Is there a difference in private and overseas?
maybe i just being sensitive.
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i do not know why sometime i speak to you you speak to me, i feel emo.
sometimes it hits me instantly.
is it because i feel obligated and what u say i just have to listen?
is it because u help my family so much?
is it because i've been conditioned by u- everything u say will always be right?
do u know........ somethings u do does affect the others?
do u know........ how others really feel abt u?
i wish to get a life on my own.
a simple life will do.
and it suddenly hit me that if i were to succeed one day credit will go to you and if i don't i will be put to blame that i didn't work hard.
so now tell me... am i living for myself?
pls say yes.
after ur call, my mood was negative AGAIN.
♥, yours truely
