minnfenn ♥ 敏芬

FREAK.

am i living in hell?

am i living in the world of my own?

am i living in this world for my family?

WHAT THE HELL.

y no one understand me?

y no one knows y i like to keep myself busy?

y no one understand y i like to tired out myself?

y can't i work n study at the same time?

y some kids can n i can't?

onli poor kids can?

wtf.

i'm poor too.

juz that i'm lucky to have above average income aunt.

i work becoz i enjoy it n i dun feel lonely.

i work becoz of fun not money.

when i was small.

i have to call my 3 "MUMMIES" b4 i can go out.

i know my the other 2 aunties cares for me.

sometime i realli do appreciate it.

1 dun allow means i've got to stay at home.

they dun allow me to learn gymnastic.

dun allow rollar blading

dun allow ice skating

dun allow staying overnight outside

i still did all these sercetly when i was pri 3 - 6.

onli told them at a later stage that actualli i did it behind their backs.

n now my aunt wan me to teach my COUSIN.

who is onli 10.

do u think this is fair to me?

dun allow me to go for my bball competition becoz i was having nose bleed.
n that was when they have not enough players.
when we have 99% to win the match.

dun allow me to run for my last yr of sports day
when i was 99% sure i will finally get GOLD for my relay.

they EVEN choose my cca for me.

FUCK.

can't choose npcc coz got to march n might get heat stroke.

can't choose soccer becoz might get heat stroke too.

freak man.

then singapore will be filled with heat stroke pple.

is this call concern?

no freedom at all.

am i suppose to live my life for them?

do wat they ask me?

hell them.

if they allow me to do the things i wan

would i even lie to them in the first place?

y some parents likes their kids to work but the kids refuse?

whereas some kids wan to work but the parents refuse?

haiz...

when can i live in the world of my own.

no troubles, problems.

free to do wat i like.

juz myself.

yes i think i will be very bored.

then y not juz end my life.

maybe i will suffer from a depression soon.

at that point of time i can do wat i like wat i wat.

by then they will regret.

serve them bloody right.

better still put me to sleep.

y am i born in this family.

being pity?

becoz my parents r divorce?

n i got a step father?

am i very rebellious?

i know i am.

reason behind

they FORCE me to.

if onli they have allow me to do it

i wont have become like this.

maybe.

dun cry for my when i die.

i will be more than happy to leave this bloody hell.

be happy for me instead.

my aunt ask me to choose studies or work.

if i choose to work n study

i got to pay the sch fee myself.

is this a threat?

is this wat u call concern?

is this a gd aunt after all?

i seriously dunno.

♥, yours truely